Live as if you were to die tomorrow. Learn as if you were to live forever.
Last night I went into the school, grabbed some light reading, and got to work on my first paper. Or at least signed some books out so I could start to work on my first paper. Two books safely in my trunk I headed to the ceramics lab where I messed up the project I started on Saturday.
Three plates, varying sizes, with lips. Plates seems an odd word to me since they are more of a dish, but really, what’s the point of arguing? Now, on Saturday I just loved working on them and shocked myself with how much I really enjoyed it. My type A did a great job on the construction on my first real ceramics project.
The second thing I learned was a little more altering than “I hate painting with slip”. It was simply that I didn’t fail just because the outcome was hideously ugly. No people, I would have failed if I hadn’t tried. I will fail if I keep this from trying something new again. I succeeded simply for the fact that I did it and learned, and am open to seeing if there are other ways I can do this that I will like (glazing perhaps?). I’m not in art school to become an artist, I’m here to try new things and expand my love for what I do. I will run into things I will never do again, find things I like, and fall in love with other unexpected things. Each and every one of those is perfect.
Interestingly enough I read these amazing words from Neil Gaiman just yesterday as I was sitting there not failing:
I hope that in this year to come, you make mistakes.
Because if you are making mistakes, then you are making new things, trying new things, learning, living, pushing yourself, changing yourself, changing your world. You’re doing things you’ve never done before, and more importantly, you’re Doing Something.
So that’s my wish for you, and all of us, and my wish for myself. Make New Mistakes. Make glorious, amazing mistakes. Make mistakes nobody’s ever made before. Don’t freeze, don’t stop, don’t worry that it isn’t good enough, or it isn’t perfect, whatever it is: art, or love, or work or family or life.
Whatever it is you’re scared of doing, Do it.
Make your mistakes, next year and forever.
So this week I’m going to go and make more ugly things, and not fail. I’m going to try new things, and surprise myself.